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Sunday, April 7, 2019

"They kept asking" --the silence of God on the fifth Sunday of Lent


Meditation for the fifth Sunday of Lent 6 April 19

“But when they kept asking Him…”
John 8: 1-11

“Remember not the events of the past,
the things of long ago consider not;
see, I am doing something new…”
Isaiah 43:16-21


“When they kept asking Him…”  Yes. Isn’t that the whole point of this story.  Not the woman, not the stoning, not even the Lord stooping to write in the dust…  But the religious leaders, the “holy” ones standing there asking and asking:  what should we do Lord? Huh? What do you say?  Stone her? Let her go?  Huh?  C’mon, speak up!

And the silence of the Lord.  That is the other element of this story that fascinates me this morning.  The fact that the people have brought their trial before Him and instead of answering, He remains silent.  Does that sound familiar?  I certainly recognize that situation in my own life. How often do I come to God demanding an answer; putting Him to the test, in fact.  God, if You are real, if You do care, if You have any control over the world, please show me a sign! Fix my marriage! Heal my child! Make me more patient! Now!! 

But in this story, as in life, God takes His time.

When we come to God demanding an answer, too often our hearts (mine, for certain) are set on a particular answer. That is all we want. That is all we are willing to accept.  We are not actually ready to hear God’s answer.  But God is patient with us and willing to wait, allowing our hearts to open (even just a little), that we might be able to let Him in (even just a little).  And I wonder if that isn’t the real reason for God’s apparent silence; not that God doesn’t care, or isn’t willing to answer us –but in the eternal wisdom, He knows that the physics of the soul requires not “action” but “inaction” to stimulate the desired response?  

Jesus remains silent and the people keep asking for an answer.  And then it comes. Unexpected. Challenging. Yet, simple and in some way always new…

The soul requires the stimulation of silence, of stillness to begin to stir, to grow, to open up to the song that God has already set humming within it.  Paradoxically, only through the seeming silence of God –out there-- do we begin to hear the voice of God –within—in our heart, our soul –quietly singing a song of love, of mercy, of forgiveness. A song eternal and yet always new.

The answer Jesus gives: Let the one who is without sin cast the first stone, is not a denial of the law, nor an affirmation of sin. It is a challenge to the people to live a new way: to live the law more fully, more intentionally; to walk more closely with God. To live more fully His love.  Though too often it can seem like an impossible challenge, it is actually an invitation. But we have to be willing to wait (not for God’s answer) but for our hearts (or ears) to be ready to hear it.

Sunday, March 10, 2019

Making God Manifest—a meditation on the blind man and the beatitudes


“And His disciples asked Him: Rabbi,
who sinned, this man or his parents, that
he was born blind? Jesus answered:
It was not that this man sinned, or his parents;
but that the works of God might be made
manifest in him.”  --John 9:2-3


When we wonder about suffering, whether in the world art large or at our own particular “ill luck,” or insufficiency, we might want to remember that the suffering isn’t our fault, and it isn’t the fault (or the sin) of our parents.  When some pain or lack in our lives gets too hard to handle, we often seek someone to blame.  We look for some kind of explanation; and it often seems easiest to blame a person—make them the villain of our story.  It feels like a curse has come upon us, and someone has to be at fault; either we have brought this on our self, or someone else is the cause. If we blame bad luck, or fate, or “the world,” then in effect we are actually blaming God (whether we are using a big “G” a little “g”).  But, here in this little story, the Lord seems to be telling us that what feels like a curse (or bad luck) may in fact be a kind of blessing.  Even better, an opportunity for a blessing to be shared: for the “works of God to be made manifest” through us.

In my personal Bible study, I am still reading through the Psalms, and in my work Bible study group we are reading Isaiah, and now for Lent I am rereading a wonderful book by the Orthodox writer Jim Forest, The Ladder of the Beatitudes (Orbis Bks.1999). Which (in turn) sent me in search of John's gospel and this story about a man born blind.   (As the psalmist says: “All doers of evil are scattered…” –and boy am I!)

Anyway, as part of his introduction, Forest devotes a brief chapter to this story from John 9 about a man born blind. And because it seems to have nothing to do with the beatitudes, I almost skipped right over it.  I was too eager to get to the whole "tofu and potatoes" of the poverty and mourning and all that "blessed are" stuff… What does this blind guy have to do with beatitudes, anyway?

Aside:  Let me back up a moment here.  Some people are of the opinion that reading is a linear act… i.e. page 1 is followed by page 2 and then 3 and then 4 and so on until the end is reached (or the book is lost on a bus –whichever comes first).  But I (being a librarian) am a professional and have never felt constrained by things like page numbers and chapter order or plot progression.  To my family’s chagrin and frustration (I fear), I often will begin a book somewhere near the middle and read for several pages (or chapters) before going back and picking up pieces of the earlier action (at random).  It is possible this odd habit of reading a book as if it were a cubist painting is a form of literary dementia, or simply a sign of intellectual instability… Nevertheless, it is true, and I thought I should confess it. 

Back to the story at hand:  Instead of skipping the chapter, for some reason I kept reading; and as I did, I had that wonderful exhilarating sense that something of great import was being said; a truth revealed.  Near the end of his brief chapter, Mr. Forest takes a moment to put himself in the place of the blind man.  He imagines sitting in darkness and hearing people talking; they are asking someone questions (about him!). Whose fault it is that he was born blind (him or his parents)? And with some curiosity, he listens to hear what will be said.  But what he hears catches him off guard. It is someone speaking not about fault or sin or blame, but about making the works of the Lord visible.  Forest imagines the blind man’s confusion; how can his blindness have anything to do with the glory of God?  But then something happens.  The voice comes near and a man puts wet clay on his eyes and tells him to go wash it off.  And when he does, suddenly it is true; the work of God is made manifest in all His glory. 

And that is when I started thinking back to that discussion I was having with my wife the other day. Driving home from work, we were trying to remember all the beatitudes, and wondering what Jesus actually meant by these paradoxical teachings; and how we (personally) might find a blessing in each of them.
Blessed are the poor in spirit, blessed are they who mourn, blessed are the meek, blessed those who hunger and thirst for righteousness… blessed are the persecuted…
And we struggled.  How can one find a blessing in poverty? Where is the blessedness in mourning? How does one find good in being persecuted? To be concrete, how is homelessness a blessing? In the moment, in the experience of it, they all feel like crushing weights, disasters even.  Yet, Jesus tells His apostles that the blindness of this man isn’t a punishment or a disaster, but an opportunity for the work of God to be made known.  Thinking about this, I realize that I too was blind.  I was getting to wrapped up in the darkness of my own anxieties (and habits) to see the truth; I was too busy blindly searching for the “right answer,” to let God’s work be made manifest.  Yet, something stopped my heedless rush, someone slowed me down with a little simple discussion of a seemingly unrelated passage from a different gospel (simple as dirt and spit) and opened my eyes: the beatitudes are not just about us, or about our comfort, they are about making the glory of God manifest to the world. They are about creating opportunities for God’s presence to be revealed.  And where does Jesus promise He will always be: in the hungry, in the naked, in the prisoners (the persecuted)…

Take a moment and read John 9, you can read the whole chapter in less than 5 minutes.  Then open Matthew and read the Beatitudes (5:3-12), and spend a little time praying over it with that blind man in mind. (And maybe pick up a copy of Jim Forest's book.) Anyway, that will be part of my Lenten prayer this year and if I am lucky, I may begin to see my life in a whole new light. 

Anyway, that’s my plan. This Lent, I will be contemplating the beatitudes with the help of Jim Forest.  And my hope is that I can learn something about the blessing of poverty, or mourning, of hunger and thirst, of mercy and peace or… perhaps, I will wait a while to ask for that other one…

Lord,
Let me not be blind to Your presence in all
those who hunger, in all who mourn, in all who
feel persecuted, belittled or forgotten. Open my eyes
to Your glory, Your grace, Your love made manifest
in the needs of others. Stir my heart, that I may greet
all those in need with generosity with love and humility.
Amen


Sunday, March 3, 2019

Psalm 22 and the witness of the Cross


“My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?”
–Psalm 22:1

The opening line of Psalm 22 is very familiar to Christians everywhere.  It is a line repeated by Jesus from the cross; one of his seven last words.  For a long time now I have known that it comes from a psalm, and perhaps –if asked—could have even told (guessed) you which one; but I wouldn’t have said that it was the opening line.  I didn’t remember that. And this morning as I read Psalm 22 I was struck by the fact that it is the first words of the psalm. And I was intrigued by that. And I began to prayerfully wonder (which is something a lot like contemplation).

When Jesus said this from the cross was He offering or attempting something more than just a personal cry of agony, or prayer?  I wonder.  Was He speaking the psalm simply as a cry to His Father, or was there more to it? Was it also a cry from all humanity trapped in sin?

“Him who knew no sin He made to be sin on our behalf…” (2 Cor 5:21)

Crying out to the Father from the very heart of sin, He uses the words of a psalm—words any devout Jew might have known, been familiar with, and thus invites His witnesses, His friends, those who remained with Him at the cross: Mary (His mother), John (the apostle), Mary, the wife of Clopas, Mary Magdalene, and Mary, the mother of James and Joses… invites them to join Him in prayer.  Think about it.  When someone begins a familiar prayer (the Lord’s prayer, for instance), think how quickly do your lips begin forming the words, unconsciously you find yourself joining in.  I have witnessed unbelievers who know this prayer begin speaking it without thinking because someone else has started it.  The words just comes out. And suddenly a group of people are praying together because one of them started with those familiar eternal words: Our Father…

And so I began to wonder, to contemplate: Did those who remained with Him, at the foot of the cross, did they continue the prayer of that psalm? As His voice failed, as His breath failed, was there a pause and then –realizing what He had said—gazing into His pain—did they continue it for Him? As a comfort to Him? The only consolation they could offer?  Did they pray the psalm for Him? 

Sometimes it is all we can do.  We can’t fix the problem, can’t ease the pain, all we can do is remain and when those we love can no longer even pray for themselves, we can… we can sit by their side, share their burden, and pray their prayers for them.  You will be surprised at what a blessing that can be.  

Him who knew no sin, became sin for us—and through Him, sin itself cried out to Heaven: My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?  Lent is beginning this week; perhaps over these next 40 days we can make some time (once a day, once a week) to still our hearts and join Him in His prayer for us.