’What do you want me to do for you?’
‘Sir,’ he replied, ‘let me see again.’”
--Luke 18:41
Entering Jericho, approaching Jerusalem, near the end of His ministry, Jesus is stopped by a blind man begging beside the road. The crowd has told the blind man to leave Jesus alone, but he only cries out the louder. Hearing his cry, Jesus stops and asks him what he wants, and the man replies:
“Let me see again.”
And Jesus restores his sight.
Again.
Again. That word is what stood out to me this morning as I did my reading. How many times have I come to God asking to be forgiven “again.” How many times have I come to God asking to be healed “again?” How many times have I come asking for help “again?” Asking God to help me see His will, His love, His grace, His presence… Am I not constantly, in one way o another, asking God to let me see again?
In the stillness of this quiet morning, let me see Your grace. In the weird way my daughter loves turtles, let me see Your love for all creation. Even in my struggles and failings, Lord, let me see Your will. In the flat tire or the broken alternator let me see Your hand. In my loneliness and sorrow, let me see Your cross. In the homeless man walking through traffic, begging for help, let me always see Your face.
Let me see again.
Isn’t that the point of Christmas? To open our eyes. To let us see again… There had been a time when God walked with man in the shade of the garden. There had been a time when He went before us –leading us-- as a pillar of cloud, and followed behind –protecting us—as a pillar of fire. Or when God was seen face to face by Moses, or witnessed in a still small sound by Elijah… God’s glory had been seen or felt in so many ways… But time and again we are blinded by our own glory, by our own worries, our own jealous desires.
And so, He came again. Not in the pillar of smoke or the pillar of flame, not in some mysterious symbolic action or strange radiance or shekinah glory. But in the flesh. As a tiny baby in a simple manger, humble, vulnerable, like one of us… like ALL of us. And for all to see, again.
And again… This year, as you prepare for Christmas take a moment to pray the prayer of this blind man on the road to Jericho. The crowds may be telling you not to bother with God. The crowds may be telling you to worry more about last minute shopping, and packages and Christmas cards and delivery dates and long lines at the UPS store. But, don’t listen to the crowd. For they too are blind.
Instead, take a moment to still your heart, pause all the preparations, and the gift-wrapping and cookie baking, and the Hallmark movie marathons, and just sit down for a moment, someplace quiet and still. Light a candle. Take a moment away from all the busy-ness and close your eyes to all the distractions. Take a breath and be still. And wait… He is coming. Truly. In the stillness, can you hear Him? He is on His way. Now, whisper the blind man’s simple prayer: Lord, let me see again.
